after a bad dream

I would like to visit you for a while
Get away and out of this city
Maybe I shouldn't have called but someone had to be the first to break
We can go sit on your back porch
Relax
Talk about anything
It don't matter
I'll be courageous if you can pretend that you've forgiven me

So maybe I shouldn't have called
Was it too soon to tell?
Oh what the hell
It doesn't really matter
How do you redefine something that never really had a name?
Has your opinion changed?

Because I don't know you anymore
I don't recognize this place
The picture frames have changed and so has your name
We don't talk much anymore
We keep running from the pain
But what I wouldn't give to see your face again

-savage garden i don't know you anymore

why motion city will forever and always be my all time favorite band. for forever and always and ever. and ever and ever.

NEW SONG NEW SONG NEW SONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!
it's like water.... i've been stranded in the desert of new-motion-city-song-less life for SO LONG. and it's more in the stylings of I Am the Movie (their BEST).
more brilliance from jp and the crew. i wouldn't expect anything less.

To the deep end, to the heart line
Hold it straight together, man
Hold it straight together, if you can
Little fevers wrapped in medication
All strung out on novelty
Collapse yourself and try to comprehend
An angry island, a bitter bee sting
Severing and shattering
Free the self and fix the in between
It's isolation, mark the earth around you
Guess who's on the waiting list
I'll let you in on something secret

I can disappear
Anytime I want to, time I feel you
Shuffle through my skin
I am with you til the end

First you breathe out
Then you have to breathe in
Lash yourself repeatedly
Until it sticks, until it sticks
Under the eyelids, carry on cadaver
Festering interiors
All hollow breach and vapor silhouette
Need medication, more medication
Coursing through your interstates
All mad and great, confused and counterfeit
Kamikaze, sear the blood inside me
Guess who's got it figured out
I'll let you in on something secret

I can disappear
Anytime I want to, time I feel you
Shuffle through my skin
I am with you til the end

And I can decompose
When it suits me I accelerate it
Wicked on all fours,
I surrender to the storm

You'll never know how it feels
You'll never know how it feels
Can you feel it?
Can you feel it?

I can disappear
Anytime I want to, time I feel you
Shuffle through my skin
I am with you til the end

I can decompose
When it suits me, I accelerate it
Wicked on all fours,
I surrender to the storm

And I can disappear
Anytime I want to, time I feel you
Shuffle through my skin
I am with you til the end
I'm with you til the end


IN OTHER RELATED NEWS.... they were going to be touring with F'ING WEEZER. I was SO psyched.
but the shows are ALREADY ALL SOLD OUT. after maybe a week.
I will kill people.

half a world away from my home

i don't really feel like writing anything. but i remembered i have this blog thing. so i will now commit to attempt to update it more regularly. i feel like it could be important somehow.

There is currently a terrible storm in manila, philippines. Many people have died, and many other people are missing. I am very worried about the alquino family and the other families we met when we filmed in the slum this past january. i don't know what has happened to them or how to find out any information about them. not knowing is scary. please keep them in your prayers.

i was browsing what bands are coming to iowa, and i came upon brett dennon. then i remembered that i enjoyed one of his songs a while back and even posted it on my blog. i actually feel it is fitting for the current situation (if almost too lighthearted)

favorite

As soon as I got home
Reached out for the phone
Drank my sleep from a can
Playing track 6, track 7, again and again

I had a crush
Nothing works out
But I had faith you could not have known
So don't even say it

Meet me again, maybe one mile high
Meet me again and I won't flake this time
Meet me again, maybe a year from now
Meet me again, I think we both remember how

It was no architect who designed this view
He could not have known about you
Mousy homes, catacombs
Detroit has a skyline, too
Detroit has a skyline, too

Meet me again, maybe one mile high
Meet me again and I won't flake this time
Meet me again, maybe a year from now
Meet me again, I think we both remember how

-"Detroit Has a Skyline" by Superchunk

grille conversation

what is "real food?" do I ever eat "real food?" does it really matter? am i missing something? is it spelled ketchup or catsup???

i like pickles, thank you very much.

a reminder

This is a list of things I want to do before I die. I posted it a long time ago, but I'm posting it again to remind myself. And I made a few changes. And I wanted to see my progress.

-be in a movie
-learn piano
-get a pilot license
-live in a city
-scuba dive
-milk a cow
X go to a hanson concert
-see the redwood forest
-go sailing
-double-dutch
-read the whole Bible
-swim with a dolphin
-do a backflip
-be in a renaissance festival
-go to Disneyworld
-drive a zamboni
-complete a rubix cube
-play tennis
-learn to read hebrew
X eat sushi
-read war and peace
-ragbrai
-take my mom to Australia
-impromptu dance in the street
-ride a carriage through a city at night
-ride a real train (not a subway or monorail)
-go ice skating at rockerfeller plaza
-take ballroom dancing lessons
-go to an NHL game
-see leno or conan live
-be kissed under mistletoe
-attend a ballet
-play a show
-conduct a choir/orchestra/band
-jump off a cliff into water
-be in a broadway show
-write/publish a book
-write a song
-camp at yellowstone
-live in Europe
-make an independent film
-attend Sundance
-learn French
-get married
-see ALL of the louvre
-look at stars in a large observatory
-be in new york for Christmas/new years
X see ben kweller live
-see blackbeard’s ship
-road trip route 66
-visit the holy land
-attend a Hollywood premere
-go on a safari
X bowl a score over 100
-get drunk at home with my husband
-ride donkeys in the grand canyon
-see The Cure live
-go on a treasure hunt
-change someone’s life (for the better)
-backpack Europe
-live by the ocean
-have a family
-attend an opera
-bonfire on a beach
-go caving
-go deep-sea fishing
-own a real sword
Xish learn to drive a stick-shift
-kill a bear
-meet David Sedaris
-graduate college

a post!

*i love my roommates. we have a lot of fun. and bonding. a senior in mel's class said that our neighbors are the "party girls." so now our room is trying to figure out: what are we? alvin, don't answer that.

*i love people who are not my roommates.... JENNY. i wish i saw her more often.

*my birthday is this weekend and my mom and dad are upset that he can't celebrate with me. i told them they really should come to omaha... it would be a blast with them. but i don't think they are going to. saddness.

*speaking of... if you are reading this, you should come on satuday! it's gonna be great. i'm serious... YOU should come.

*i've been sick. it sucks.

*i realized a good chunk of things i blog about have been about the same thing. maybe i should just talk about it to someone instead of sulking

*....nope.

*i've been having really weird, freaky dreams. they seem so real!!! i dreamt my friend from back home died, and it's weird not seeing him in real life.. i can't prove to my brain that he is actually still alive. he exists in some weird living/dead limbo in my head.

*i have only seen alvin once today. and once yesterday. it's really weird! usually we are with each other 24/7. between Faith and Film, our movie, signet....

*faith and film this weekend. sunday. 7:30. come.

*time for night class. gahlhhb!